Countdown

8 MORE DAYS TILL MY GRANDPARENTS GET HERE!

9 MORE DAYS UNTIL OUR ENDOWMENTS!

10 MORE DAYS UNTIL WE ARE SEALED FOR TIME AND ALL ETERNITY!

11 MORE DAYS UNTIL OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!


SO MUCH TO CELEBRATE! SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR! SO MUCH TO BE HAPPY ABOUT!

I SIMPLY CAN'T WAIT.

Night have become restless.
Time seems to just stand still.
The next two weeks are mad busy.
Yet, it just keeps getting better.

P.S. We put in an offer on a condo. We might know by tomorrow whether or not we got it! How freakin excited am I? SO FLIPPIN EXCITED!

A sea!

My hubby packed snacks for me today... upon opening the bag this is what I found:










A sea full of fishies!
YUMMY!
(I also wanted to try out the new application I got on my phone... it has zoom)

Hope

If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream.
- Martin Luther King, Jr
"Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer."
- Romans 12:12

I often wonder if it is hope that creates a road block in my life. I always hope for the best- for things to come out the "right" way. Is there a right way? While some days it is hope that keeps me going strong- it is also hope that breaks my heart over and over again. I wish I could find myself in a place where hope doesn't make or break me- but that is the only thing I have at some points. I have to hope life will get better- I have to hope that I will accomplish all that I set out to do. I have to hope that I am going in the right direction. I have to hope that I will have the relationships with my family that I want. I have to hope that all my dreams will come true. And when it doesn't happen- when I get so low it hurts too much to move- or when I no longer am sure of the direction I am taking- or when I am finding it nearly impossible to accomplish all that I want- or when I can't seem to stop making mistakes- my heart breaks. It shatters. And I am left to put it back together again... Hope has left me tired and vunerable. There has to come a point when I will no longer hope. However, I have faith that God will bless me in His time.

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." ~HEBREWS 11:1

Happy Birthday Buckwheat!

In honor of my baby brother's 23rd birthday... I dedicate this post to him with 23 wonderful things about him.

23. He always makes me laugh.

22. He truly has one of the best hearts out there.

21. He is such a stud :)

20. He is so freakin smart.

19. He has such an amazing work ethic.

18. I loved watching him play baseball growing up.

17. He is phenomenal with kids- he will be a wonderful daddy when he grows up.

16. He is the pride and joy of our family.

15. He will always be the baby and therefore we love him a lot more.

14. He is aspiring to be a teacher... a history teacher. That is rad.

13. He is one of my closest family members and I love him so much.

12. He has a drive for a good life and I love watching him grow.

11. He loves people unconditionally... especially me.

10. He is the best little brother in the world (he played barbies and g.i. joes with me growing up).

9. He was amazing at my wedding... helping out in whatever way he could.

8. I love just talking to him...

7. I love just being in the same car as him (I miss our drives together... a lot).

6. I love his love for Dave Matthews...

5. He has had some of the best girlfriends in the world- some girl is going to be very lucky to be his wife.

4. He is a wonderful uncle (even when he is hungover).

3. He is the world's biggest comedian. I swear that is what he is suppose to do for his career.

2. Even after all the adversity he has had in his life... he has never just given up. I am so proud of him.

1. I am proud to be known as his big sister. He is all of these things plus a thousand more. I couldn't be any luckier. He even lets me call him Buckwheat still.

Buck,

I can't imagine my life without you. You have done so much for me and I always feel like I should do more for you. You are going so far in life. Keep striving. I am so proud of you and I love you so freakin much! I can't wait to see you!

Your big sister #2 or #3 depending on how you look at it,

Cass

I have a problem...

I like to look at blogs of people I don't know. It can consume me for hours. It is what I do at work to pass away the time when our dialer is down and I have nothing to follow up upon. It is what I do to make time fly by when I am waiting for my husband to get home.
It is interesting to me to read about girls waiting for their missionaries to come home and the battles that they fight along the way. I luckily never had to deal with this... although sometimes I wish I had. I have seen it shape these girls hearts to strive more for a relationship with God. For a deeper relationship with God.
I have recently stumbled upon a blog about a young LDS girl giving up her baby for adoption. This blog has made me go through every emotion I have ever known. I have felt happiness for the adoptive family. I have felt sadness for this girl. I have felt pride and anger. Fortune and heartache. It amazes me. This girl... amazes me. I wish I could have her strength. I wish I could face my consequences with such gusto. How amazing is she?
I also love the blogs that only talk about love. How amazing it is. I always get giddy every time I think about love. Tom and I are so blessed to feel what we feel. Few ever feel it. You definitely need to check out lelove.blogspot.com totally worth it!

I need help. Maybe it is because I don't have much of a life besides church and work... but it is my life and I LOVE IT!

Totally excited about FHE tonight at our place. I am excited to have the girls over with the loves of their lives and to get to know them better. We are going to have a blast!

I love you babe!