Wednesday, July 29, 2009

EEEEKKKK!

So we set our times and dates with Oakland Temple this morning!!!!!

We are going to get our ENDOWMENTS on September 4th at 2:00pm and then................

Thomas and I will be SEALED FOR TIME AND ALL ETERNITY on September 5, 2009 at 10:00 am.

I simply cannot wait!!!!

I cannot wait to be his wife forever and ever.

I cannot wait to have our children be sealed to us forever.

I cannot wait to go into the Temple for the first time AND with my husband.

I cannot wait to know what it feels like to be in the Temple (I can only imagine being that I feel AMAZING when I am outside the Temple).

I am so excited! My heart just flutters.

Babe- I can't wait to be your eternal best friend, your eternal companion, your wife for time and all eternity.

38 DAYS!!!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

How do you know?

So after a short discussion with my boss, who told me that I was wrong about knowing what love is... I have decided to research this subject and decide... "How do you know you are in love?"

A co-worker is going through a divorce and since we are all pretty close, we are trying to give him some advice. My boss doesn't believe that what my co-worker feels for his soon-to-be ex wife is love. If it wasn't love, why would he continue to be with her for 7 years? Maybe I am just old fashioned and believe that love never stops... it can change... but it never stops. And I don't believe you can only fall in love once... but I do believe you have only one true love.

I have only one real experience of breaking up. I had a few "boyfriends" during my time, but before my husband, I was only in love once. And when we broke up... and the months that led up to our breakup was earth shattering. I really loved him, but he never loved me. There was a lot of time and energy that was put into our relationship, but I was really just someone to pass the time with. Knowing this, never made it easier to forget him or to stop loving him. A certain song would come on, or something was said, or a car like his would drive by and I would lose it. And only time made it easier to get through the days without him. It doesn't matter that he broke me heart and lied to me, it would not have made it any easier had he just told me that it wasn't working out. I honestly, hopelessly, completely loved him. And to an extent, still do today. I don't wish bad things on him. I wish him happiness and a good life. And if we ever meet on the street again, I will smile and be thankful for all he taught me. He taught me that true love is a lot different than anything I had ever felt. So when I met my husband for the first time, and we fell in love...

I knew this was it. This was the man I was going to spending the rest of my life with. I think I knew after our first fight, and the first tear fell, and I didn't want to be mad anymore... I just wanted to curl up into his arms and stay there forever. He became my comforter, my best friend, my confident. I knew I wouldn't be completely without this man. And trust me, we've had enough bumps in the road to make sure we would work. I can't imagine my life without him.

How did you know you were in love? Have you been in love more than once? Is that possible? I want to know. Here is what I have found so far:

Wikianswers.com "if you ask, you either doubt your feelings, in which case you aren't truly in love, or you don't know if the relationship will/would work out, which is an altogether different question, since being truly in love isn't enough for a successful relationship, though it's a good start, especially if by "you" you mean "both of you".

yahoo.com "i doubt anybody can really explain this no matter how detailed it is, and how hard they try. i asked my friend this question the other day and he said that just because your passionate about someone, or you love them, doesn't mean you are in love with them. People usually say that being in love means you want to spend the rest of your life with that person, but if you think you can spending the rest of your life with them. I doubt it is really love. You've got to find someone you can't live without :)"

beliefnet.com "Being in love is an altered state. Suddenly your life is focused on another person and you can't bear being separated from him or her. You are in a bubble of fantasy, feeling overcome and giddy. Love for another person, in contrast, is closer to appreciation and affection. Love is fairly reasonable, while being in love is more like a prolonged seizure, not literally sick or crazy, but one of those ordinary, positive ecstasies that take you out of ordinary life and introduce you to something new."

I wanna know what you think love is...

Downtime

I am at work and while on a bit of down time decided I would update this thing. I still find myself not have adequate time to update and that makes me sad. But really... how many people are really dying to read this? Probably not a lot, so I don't stress myself on it.

I have started a new job at Land/Home Financial and can honestly say, this is the happiest I have been at a job since Circuit City. That's like 3 years! I feel so blessed! Things are falling into place and now that I have said that, something will soon fall out of place :) I am working with some people I have worked with for quite sometime and LOVE it. This is the best!

Tom and I are continuing to prepare for the Temple- which is by far the biggest blessing in my life. I feel so grateful to have this opportunity. It is not too far away and I am excited to have people from our families travel and join us for our most special day. With preparing for the Temple, I have gained a strong testimony of paying tithing. I really didn't think much of it before, as we only paid when we felt we had the money to pay. Being that in order to enter the Temple, we have to be full tithe payers, we started to pay our tithing in full and sometimes that hurt. Instead of using the money to put away for rent, here we are writing out checks that could be used for something we need or want. But, I never was nervous about it. I felt so calm and collected, like the Spirit was telling me that we would be ok. If we followed the Lord's commandment and gave back 10% of what He gives us, we will be blessed. And blessed we have been. I am no longer worried about making rent. I know we will have the money, even though we don't have it yet. I am no longer worried about paying back our loans or making our bills. I just know it will be ok. And so far, I haven't been proven wrong. Tom was given more hours this week (like 11 more hours) and my work will pay me right away, even though I just started. And I owe it all to our Heavenly Father. And my sister told me this while I was in Wyoming for Morgan's birthday. She said, "Jason and I know that when we pay tithing, something always works out." I am so blessed that she is a member. I feel so much closer to her now than I ever have. I am excited for the possibility of her joining Tom and I in the Temple for our sealing. God has blessed us.

I have to remember that even when things don't go exactly to plan, that God has something better in store. That is so hard for me to remember sometimes, especially when I want it so desperately and right then!!! I know He has a plan. I know He knows what He is doing. I just have to have hope. And faith.

I feel like most of my blogs center around my faith. And I kind of enjoy that. I don't express it very often- although I hope to get better at it. I feel so happy to have this in my life. I felt like I was looking for it for so long.

"Hope is a good thing. And no good thing ever dies." ~Shawshank Redemption