Who knew God could be so amazing and thorough???
As things get to be a bit overwhelming here and I find myself getting stressed out and worrying a bit more than I should... He offers me some relief. With an amazing phone call from my dad reminding me to stay strong and work hard. With amazing blogs from friends and kind words to keep me pushing forward and then with a letter that has been stashed away for sometime to just fall into my lap.
God never ceases to amaze me. I find myself falling more in love with Him and remembering exactly why I decided to live a life for Him. I would think that this would be the time when I would just give up on God. When the going gets tough that it. But in so many ways- some subtle some unsubtle- He touches my heart.
It first started on Sunday. Tom and I were on our way to church and thanks to my little sister I tuned the radio to
KLOVE. My heart was overflowing with the Spirit as
SONICFLOOD came on and sang "I want to know you more." Goosebumps infested my body. And I started to sing... with my whole heart invested in it. I am sure I sounded like a dog howling but that wasn't the point. The Spirit was moving my heart and I felt
soooo good! What a great way to start off the week! Sacrament was good... a lot of talk on Temple Marriage and how important it is. I just nudged Tom and winked :) We met some people due to the fact that we are new to the ward. It was a nice warm and comfortable feeling.
I have felt quite bogged down this week. Work is not going as well as I want it to. I am frustrated with my boss and I feel like I am failing... as a wife, daughter, and employee. And last night, as I thought of a friend who is overwhelmed and stressed with her home situation, I got out a letter written to me by a friend who I miss and love so much! It was a letter she wrote to me that I had written to her and we just keep passing it back and forth. I wrote it down for my friend who is
struggling and didn't even bother to read it or really take in what it said. I just knew these words would help her.
After a great conversation with my dad this afternoon, I was sitting here, thinking, and this letter came back to my mind. Long story... shorter- I should have been remembering these words I wrote to Nicole 8 years ago and that she wrote back to me just two years ago.
Dec. 26, 2000“God is looking out for you; He’s not going to give you anything you can’t handle and He’s going to help you through the things you think you can’t handle.”
Too tired…Matt 11:28-30 "Co me unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls."
Nobody loves me…John 3:16, 13:34 & Psalm 145:14 " For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever
believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." "A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another." "The Lord
upholdeth all that fall, and
raiseth up all those that be bowed down.:
I can’t go on…2 Cor 12:9, Psalm 91:15 "He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will
deliver him and honour him."
I can’t figure things out…Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
I can’t do it…Phil 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which
strengtheneth me."
Not able…2 Cor 4:8-9 and 9:8 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed." "Not worth it…Romans 9:28And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:"
Can’t forgive myself… Romans 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."
I’m afraid…2 Tim 1:7 "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."
Always worried and frustrated…1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: casting all your care upon him; for he
careth for you."
Enough faith…Romans 12:3 "...according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith."
Not smart…1 Cor 1:30 "But of him are ye in Christ Jesus, who of God is made unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption"
Feeling alone…Heb 13:5 "Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."
Not pretty enough…2 Cor 4:18 while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
No one cares... Psalm 139 "
1 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2 Thou
knowest my
downsitting and mine uprising; thou
understandest my thought afar off.
3 Thou
compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou
knowest it altogether.
5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7 Whither shall I go from thy Spirit? Or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10 even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12 Yea, the darkness
hideth not from thee; but the night
shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. 1
4 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul
knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. 16
Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being
unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned,when as yet there was none of them.
17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them! 18
If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20 For they speak against thee wickedly,and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? And am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24 and see if there be any wicked way in me,and lead me in the way everlasting."
*sigh*. He always takes care of me. I am so thankful. My heart feels at peace now. Thanks God!!!
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